I'm writing after a long time today.... And I must say the time of writing is almost the same as before.... It's 6.30AM now and actually I didn't just wake up, I will go to sleep after writing this.
So, what's happening around me? One sentence answers everything: "Time has changed...". Does it actually represent my condition? I guess NO. I have to write million other sentences with that to explain my situation. And I'm not going to punish my fingers and neck that way.
I'm waiting for a good thing to happen in my life. Comparing to many people's life I am in heaven now... But inside my heart and mind it's totally messed up. Tons of bad memories, bunch of bad news, frustration for some new ugly discoveries... These are the things going on with my life now. Don't I need a good thing to happen right now?
It's freezing cold here now... I am wearing jackets inside my room though all the windows are closed.... The world outside is foggy... Some people from the neighborhood are making weird sounds... I guess they just woke up and will go for work shortly... Only the birds are super-active right now... I don't know what's wrong with them... They don't have to go for work... So, why don't they sleep inside their nest for a while? If I were a bird I would never go out now... But they are the real happy soul... When I think of freedom the first thing comes to my mind is a flying bird... It's amazing how they manage to live and fly happily... They don't do any nasty politics.... They don't kill other birds like we do... They don't even cheat with another bird.... OR..... do they? I will never know... Because I can't read their mind!
I wrote a crap.... And know what, I can continue to write craps now for more than 2/3 hours if I want to... But that will make me delete this post sooner or later!
So, it's a goodbye.
2 comments:
I took a similar pic about 2.5 years back. Your picture reminded me of mine.
I think you're going through a tough time. I don't want to say any consoling words, but I think every experience is a lesson. Hope you get something good out of it in near future.
How's life? What about going abroad? I'll be leaving for Canada in next 6 to 7 months I guess. Got full scholarship for M.Sc. Hopefully it would lead to PhD as I'm an expert of getting grades! :P
My bf is also there. Hope to get married soon after shifting there. Things are kind of falling into places. I hope it remains good in future. :)
Life is OK... I gotta move on... But like I said I need a good thing to happen. I guess the bad luck thing has penetrated into every single thing in my life right now. As a result haven't got any advancement in going abroad. But I'm still trying. I don't know what will I do. I had plans to go abroad in this year. Then I had to push it to 2012. And still got nothing for that either. I don't think I can wait till 2013. So, I just don't know where it will leave me. It's a tough time indeed.
And congrats on getting the scholarship! And WOW! I wish you good luck with the next step of your life. Hope everything will go according to your plan.
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